Christmas spirit. . .

Until tonight I havent been in the Christmas mood. This could be because I have been bogged down with many other things going on, but it could also be that this looks like it's going to be my first christmas being single in about 6 years.

But tonight all of that changed I went shopping for christmas decorations with Bekki, and Lauren and let me tell you what a blast. My car was jam packed with christmas decorations and we were hopping from store to store for several hours looking for just the right stuff. We got back to Bekki's place around 11 and deocorated until everything was done. What a blast, we even listened to a little christmas music in the car on one of our many drive-thru trips today.

So being with people you love really helps you get into the christmas spirit. So now that Bekki's house is all decorated I have some motivation to finish up my decorating and start enjoying the holiday season.

Merry Christmas to all, and to all a good night!


I don't want a lot for Christmas
There's just one thing I need
I don't care about the presents
Underneath the Christmas tree
I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
All I want for Christmas is... You

I don't want a lot for Christmas
There's just one thing I need
I don't care about the presents
Underneath the Christmas tree
I don't need to hang my stocking
There upon the fireplace
Santa Claus won't make me happy
With a toy on Christmas day
I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
All I want for Christmas is you You baby

I won't ask for much this Christmas
I don't even wish for snow
I'm just gonna keep on waiting
Underneath the mistletoe
I won't make a list and send it
To the North Pole for Saint Nick
I won't even stay awake to
Hear those magic reindeers click
'Cause I just want you here tonight
Holding on to me so tight
What more can I do
Baby all I want for Christmas is you Ooh baby

All the lights are shining
So brightly everywhere
And the sound of children's
Laughter fills the air
And everyone is singing
I hear those sleigh bells ringing
Santa won't you bring me the one I really need
Won't you please bring my baby to me...

Oh I don't want a lot for Christmas
This is all I'm asking for
I just want to see my baby
Standing right outside my door
Oh I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
Baby all I want for Christmas is... You
All I want for Christmas is you... baby

-Marial Carey, All I Want for Christmas

So Right, But So Wrong!

So everything seems to be going so right in my social life and I have met so many new amazing people. I feel like a social butterfly. I have been traveling to Syracuse every weekend to see my best friend and a police officer that I have been talking to for some time now. He had an amazing Christmas party at his house on Saturday and we had so much fun. I was only supposed to be in Syracuse until Sunday, but I am still here because I have just fallen for this cop. I would do anything to be around him all the time. I have never felt this way about anyone before. I am willing to give up everything that I have established in Brockport. This is so bad because I have only known him for a month, and I have such strong feelings for him. So what's a boy to do???? Well I have been blantently honest and given it my all. I guess thats the best that I can do. I am completely obsessed with everything about him. From his personality to his looks, to his house. Everything about him just seems perfect. The downfall is that he already has someone else in his life and that makes for a very complicated situation. I have meet that other indivudal several times and he is a great guy. I dont want to be a homewrecker but I cant see myself with anyone else. I find my self constantly thinking about him and wanting to be with him. I know many people would advise me to just move on and get out of the complex situation, but I just cant do it. I'm in too deep and dont know if I could settle for anything less.

Here I am sitting up, talking about him becasue I cannot sleep. I should be focused on school right now because it's finals week, and I'm not even in Brockport and I could give two shits about school right now. Wow way too much going on. This will be my first weekend in Brockport for quite some time and I'm not sure what's going on after this weekend. I know that I will be back in Syracuse for New Years, but after this week I dont have any commitments until January 26th. No work, no school, just play. This will be the first time in my life that I dont have anything to do for more than a month. Yea I'll be broke as hell, but you only live once and I need a break from some of the crazyness. Hopefully I will be in Syracuse for most of my break getting to know that special someone better.