So Right, But So Wrong!

So everything seems to be going so right in my social life and I have met so many new amazing people. I feel like a social butterfly. I have been traveling to Syracuse every weekend to see my best friend and a police officer that I have been talking to for some time now. He had an amazing Christmas party at his house on Saturday and we had so much fun. I was only supposed to be in Syracuse until Sunday, but I am still here because I have just fallen for this cop. I would do anything to be around him all the time. I have never felt this way about anyone before. I am willing to give up everything that I have established in Brockport. This is so bad because I have only known him for a month, and I have such strong feelings for him. So what's a boy to do???? Well I have been blantently honest and given it my all. I guess thats the best that I can do. I am completely obsessed with everything about him. From his personality to his looks, to his house. Everything about him just seems perfect. The downfall is that he already has someone else in his life and that makes for a very complicated situation. I have meet that other indivudal several times and he is a great guy. I dont want to be a homewrecker but I cant see myself with anyone else. I find my self constantly thinking about him and wanting to be with him. I know many people would advise me to just move on and get out of the complex situation, but I just cant do it. I'm in too deep and dont know if I could settle for anything less.

Here I am sitting up, talking about him becasue I cannot sleep. I should be focused on school right now because it's finals week, and I'm not even in Brockport and I could give two shits about school right now. Wow way too much going on. This will be my first weekend in Brockport for quite some time and I'm not sure what's going on after this weekend. I know that I will be back in Syracuse for New Years, but after this week I dont have any commitments until January 26th. No work, no school, just play. This will be the first time in my life that I dont have anything to do for more than a month. Yea I'll be broke as hell, but you only live once and I need a break from some of the crazyness. Hopefully I will be in Syracuse for most of my break getting to know that special someone better.